Once upon a time

I don’t have a very good memory. However, whatever details I do remember about anything are those little details people normally do not remember. 

Last year, I wasn’t emotionally or mentally at peace. I also didn’t want to forget whatever was happening with me. I wanted to look back and remember those days again. Like a story. 

So, I began writing diary. 

I had one, but I recorded my poems in that. I began recording my life and felt different. I started pouring out my heart and my mind started clearing up. 

The weather of my heart started changing and my words translated into something beautiful, my strength. 

I always believe that writing is a two way process. You learn from it and your words empower you. Writing is cathartic as well. 

I was directionless. I needed a map. A way. And I found it too. 

I didn’t get answers to all my questions, but I made peace with myself. I was at peace with not having my questions answered. I became okay with not having a direction. I became okay with everything not normal and uncertain. 

I evolved. 

It’s like playing games. You win, you lose. But if you change your perception, your failures become success, a way to learn. 

It’s like driving a car without directions and being okay with getting lost because it’ll lead you to find new ways. 

Eventually, you’ll be home. 

This life may be a test, but you’ve got to learn from it. 

Once upon a time, life became beautiful ever since.  


Let’s be weak 

Yeah, you read it right. Let’s be weak. 

Most of us would be familiar with the fact that being strong is considered good. If you’re strong, you can handle anything. You have to be strong because that’s desirable. It’s a compliment. 

Being weak, on the other hand, is undesirable. It almost sounds like a mocking remark or something that’s said to make you feel inferior. Being weak isn’t, in any way, considered right or acceptable. 

Weakness is important. It really is. It’s a way of letting go of all that you’ve held for long. Weakness is an outlet of suppressed emotions. You have to let yourself be weak and emotional. How are you going to be strong if you don’t allow yourself to be weak?

Every person is a mix of both, but not everyone accepts being weak even to themselves. This is what is important; accepting it to yourself, accepting yourself. 

The perception shaping weakness is so wrong. Weakness is an integral part of our being and we need to change the perception for our own good, for our mental health. 

It’s okay if you can’t go on and if you want to cry, but don’t give up. Take your time being weak and crying and fearing and hurting because once that passes, you’re going to make through. No matter what, you are going to make through anything and everything. Weakness doesn’t mean giving up. It means being strong enough to accept and face your feelings as they are. It means being strong enough to break so that you can mend again. 

Weakness is cathartic.